I don’t think I attract drama. Really! I just exist and things like this happen. I mean… . Uuuggghhh, is taking responsibility like the adult thing to do?

Besides did I really want to cause a rift between my boys?

Although it was heartwarming that they never ever put the blame on me. How cute.

But in this regard, I should actually be blameless so we can go back to our nice little house without this awkward, whatever it was going on. Not with me, but with each other. I mean for the first time in I think a month and a half, we didn’t have dinner together. And this morning, nobody was in the kitchen.

I knew Marcel always escaped to his studio and surprisingly Joseph had left our smoothie on the counter for me.

So I did my part after work.

I came back later than usual, but had texted them to meet me in the living room at 7:30.

I received a thumbs up from Joseph and a why from Marcel.

-because I want to tell you guys something

-I’ll see

God, this boy really could be infuriating.

“Sorry, I’m late.” I panted as I rushed into the living room. “You know public transportation is not a reliable source of transportation to the center of the island. “

“It’s okay, no worries.” Joseph smiled. “Marcel was late anyways.”

I arched an eyebrow at the guy lounging on the couch with a book to his face. “I don’t see why. You’re always home.”

He scoffed but didn’t reply.

I rolled my eyes and reached into my purse. “Okay first, I just really don’t like the vibe going on between us right now.” I opened up. “Like yesterday’s blow out was very….very… like, not good for us.” I pulled out the papers and handed it to Joseph with a smile. “So, I went and got tested, walked around for a bit and got my results, you know… just because of what happened.”

Marcel moved his book down a little to look at me. Joseph took the papers in surprise but didn’t glance at it.

I shrugged. “So like besides herpes and Chlamidiya, I’m like all good.”

Joseph’s eyes widened and Marcel smirked.

“I was joking. “ I said quickly. “Like I don’t have those, I was just… . Maybe not a good thing to joke of now.” I chewed on my bottom lip. “You can look.”

Joseph lowered his gaze to the paper. Marcel put his book back up to his face.

I cleared my throat. “So, I mean I know how important it is to be very respectful when it comes to partners and sex and Joseph again, I’m sorry for not taking up the responsibility for the condom. “ I pointed to Marcel. “It’s not completely his fault. “ I touched my chest. “I also didn’t really think of it and then didn’t really think it was a big deal because I just… . I mean I’ve been on birth control since I was like 14 religiously and I’m really like on my exams and I swear I don’t fuck strangers without condoms… like I just… felt comfortable with Mar---this----this arrangement.”

I took a deep breath as Joseph stared up at me softly. “But of course that doesn’t mean it was okay, like it wasn’t and it was completely disrespectful to you since it was one of our rules.” I swallowed hard and move to the chair and finally sat down. “So, yeah… that’s what I just--- like I’m clean----and there’s no pregnancy issue in light of past events and I just want to clear the air and yes absolutely condoms no doubt.”

Joseph sighed and put my papers on the coffee table. He rubbed his face and looked up at the ceiling with a loud exhale. “God, Lee I’m sorry for bursting out like that.” he ran his hand over his face. “I know I overreacted and…” He sighed. “You didn’t have to do that---show us that.”

I smiled and shrugged. “I don’t like seeing you upset.”

Marcel groaned. “Okay I’m out.” He closed his book and hopped off the chair.

“We’re having a meeting.” I glared at him. “A very important meeting.”

He rolled his eyes. “No, you two are gonna start singing kumbaya and shit.” He yawned. “I’m going back to the studio.”

My mouth dropped as he walked past. I tried to kick him but he moved out of reach. Joseph was staring at his hands.

Marcel stepped out the living room but looked back. His gaze gentle with a small smile on his lips. He gave me a slight nod and left.

Feeling warm, I turned back to Joseph who was still staring at his hands.

I moved from my chair and went to sit next to him on the couch.

“You okay?”

“Marcel always wears a condom.” Joseph spoke. “Even if we’re shitfaced drunk.” He sighed. “You know that girl I said try to shoot Marcel?”

I nodded.

“Her name was Nancy. And she tried to claim Marcel had gotten her pregnant. “

“I heard. “ I whispered.

He chuckled. “If anything, the kid would have been mine if she was. We were fucking wasted, like more than Lady’s party. “ Joseph rubbed his face. “He says we both fucked her without condoms.” He shook his head. “He was trying to make me feel better.”

I widened my eyes.

“We wear different condoms. There were two in the waste basket. Both his.” Joseph sighed. “I kept insisting in the tests because she kept saying it was his, his, his.” Joseph laughed in disbelief. “Marcel barely even tolerated her. He called her a bitch to her face and she was just so hung on him.”

Joseph closed his eyes. “He has that effect on people.”

I nodded silently and then grabbed his hand. He opened his eyes in surprise and looked at me. I smiled. “You have that effect too, but you’re too uptight to notice.”

He chuckled.

I interlaced our fingers. He squeezed my hand and put his other hand ontop. “If Marcel didn’t want this… . Would you have?” I whispered.

Joseph blinked a bit and looked me over for a minute. “I think, eventually yes. You’re very attractive. And super, super nice.”

I blushed and shook my head.

“But, I think I would have fought it off to keep being your friend.” He continued.

I cheesed. “We do have a good thing going on. “

He chuckled. His laugh died down and we stared at each other.

“So why’d you offer this up?” I put my hand now on top of his, and so we held each other’s hand.

Joseph smiled sadly. “You two have really amazing chemistry.” He spoke. “And Marcel… doesn’t really ask for much… “ he chuckled. “Unlike me.” He looked down at our hands, his thumb rubbing my hand. “Nancy was my idea, I’d met her at a festival. Before Nancy there was this John Stamos looking guy from Italy that couch surfed here for two weeks, I offered that option too.”

“Ooohhh sexy. “ I whispered.

“He was.” Joseph smiled as if remembering.

“So you guys always like… add people?”

Joseph shook his head. “No, not really. I mean we’ve been together three years now and… you’re our third. “

“Oh….”

“Nothing lasted for more than a couple weeks though.” Joseph stated scratching the side of his face.

I shrugged nonchalantly. “Well we both know this is limited, so you shouldn’t get worked----”

“He likes you Lee.” Joseph cut me off. He swallowed hard. “He likes you a lot.”

My heart jumped. I swallowed hard, feeling a lump in my throat.

“And, I think that’s why I’m feeling… .. Just… .. “ He shrugged. “I don’t know.”

I grabbed Joseph’s shoulders. “I like him. I like you. I hope you both like me.” I put my hand over my heart. “Even if we have chemistry, and we like each other. I know Joseph beyond a shadow of a doubt that Marcel loves you very much. And I swear, I will never get between that. “

I smiled. “If I do or end up falling ridiculously in love with him. I swear I’ll leave.” I put my hands up. “Scout’s honor.”

He looked me over silently.

“I promise.”

He looked down and chewed on his bottom lip. “You think it’s childless and insecure of me to feel this way----”

“No, no, no, no----” I put my hand up. “I get it. When you have it good, you don’t ever want it to be taken from you.”

Joseph nodded. He closed his eyes and sighed. Releasing my hand he pressed his palms against his eyes. “I just-----uuggghhh---okay, okay.” he exhaled deeply. He turned to me and nodded. His bottom lip trembled slightly. “I love him, I love him a lot.” He swallowed hard. “And honestly you’re a pretty awesome choice.” he chuckled.

I smiled.

“No more bitchyness Lee.” he smiled. “I promise.”

I giggled and threw my arms around him. He hugged me tight. We stayed like that for a bit before slowly pulling back. “You know another idea is maybe we don’t make this all about Marcel.” I shrugged. “I might as well take advantage of both of you guys. “

Joseph laughed. “You really are one of a kind.”

I shrugged. “You know, I try to-----oh. “ I smiled and closed my eyes as I accepted his kiss. He held me closer and deepened the kiss, his tongue slipping through my lips.

Marcel pressed his back against the wall and sighed softly. He lifted his head and stared at the ceiling briefly. He quietly continued down the hallway to get to his studio.

**

I done restored peace unto our household.

Who knew communicating could get us so far.

Back was the breakfast meeting, the laughter, the teasing, the dinners, the movies. I was so happy.

But I just couldn’t figure out the perfect dynamic for us to be here so comfortable AND for them to fuck my brains out. I wanted a repeat of Lady’s party. Minus the drinking. I mean fuck, I dreamed about it. More than once. Woke up more than horny.

I mean and I hadn’t slept with either in the past week. I mean kitty needed some loving. Even big flirt Marcel hadn’t given me any suggestive vibe or that look, where I knew he wanted to fuck my brains out.

He must be getting bored. Which means if I wanted to finally do anal, then my ass needed to be proactive before he lost interest completely and I was out of here.

But with all that being said, it was nice seeing them like they were. Marcel smacking Joseph’s ass teasingly. Playing in his hair. Seeing them make out casually. I caught Marcel on several different occasions telling Joseph he loved him. Joseph would beam like a kid in a candy store. They really were forming a special place in my heart.

“I’m coming, stop blowing that horn!” I rushed down stairs. “Hey boys, I’ll be back later!”

“Where are you going?” Marcel asked rushing out the kitchen.

“Simi is having a BBQ.” I answered grabbing my keys off the dish.

“So why are you naked?”

I rolled my eyes and laughed. I was wearing my orange two piece bikini and a short mini skirt with flipflops. “The BBQ is on the beach, and I’m not naked.” I grinned. “Although there’s no guarantee I won’t be later.”

Marcel narrowed his eyes. Joseph popped his head over the railing and whistled. I looked up and waved as they blew the horn again.

I rolled my eyes. “They’re so impatient. “

“Lee, no getting in guys trunks!” Joseph yelled as I opened the front door.

I laughed and closed the door and ran to the Jeep. “Geez, I’m coming!”

Hanging out without the boys always made me miss them. For example listening to all the drama, Joseph and I would have had all the gossip. We could have tag teamed. And with all the really interesting (weird) hippie people that had showed up. Marcel and I would have people watched as we drank our beers. He would have made snide comments and I would have laughed at how he said them with such a straight face.

But I mean I could still enjoy without them. And that was exactly what I planned to do.

**

“Shit… you scared me. What are you doing up?” I whispered pausing in the steps.

“You forgot to text.” Marcel stated leaning against the banister in only his boxers riding low.

I smacked my forehead and continued up the stairs. “Oh that’s right, I forgot. You know you can also text me.”

“Didn’t want to interrupt.” He responded. “But, I’ll keep that in mind.”

“Good.” I grinned as I passed him. “Goodnight.”

“Eloise.”

I turned around, tripping slightly over my feet and catching myself again. I smiled brightly.

He looked me over. “Did you fuck anybody there?”

I laughed at the question. “Maybe I did. Maybe I didn’t.” I pointed a finger teasingly at him. “But if I did, I promise I wore a condom.” I giggled and turned around.

“Eloise…”

“What?” I turned back around and yawned. I smiled as I held on to my doorknob. God, I couldn’t wait for my bed.

Marcel sighed. “Nothing. Goodnight.”

“Night. Marcel.” I beamed at him and walked into my room.

**

“Lee is here!”

I closed the front door and grinned. “Oh wow, I get an announcement.”

Joseph slid out into the hallway arms out. “A breathe of fresh air!” He rushed over to me and kissed me passionately on the lips. “Honestly I forgot what it was like staying home all day with Marcel. He’s such a drag. “

I giggled. “Enjoy your three day break. Because then you’ll come home and say the band members are a drag or the charity is full of shit.”

He nodded. “They are full of shit.”

“Good, now you can go nag in her ear.” Mr. Grumpy said walking out the living room, shirtless with tan linen pants, loosely tied.

“I don’t nag.” Joseph stated. “Talking to him is like talking to a wall.”

I chuckled. They were in great spirits.

“So, Lee.” Joseph turned me around and walked me to the kitchen. “We have something we want to all to you about.”

“Ooohhh mystery. “ I widened my eyes as I let him usher me to a seat at the table.

He smiled and moved to the end of the table and sat. Marcel took the seat right next to me, turned it so he was facing me, his legs brushing my own. He pulled a twizzler and let it hang in his mouth as he put papers in front of me.

“What’s this?” I asked picking them up.

“Our latest report.” Marcel answered seriously. “We wanted you to see the most updated.”

I inhaled sharply. “Yikes, Marcel… syphilis…” I joked

“it’s a burden I’m willing to carry for us all. “

I giggled, and flipped through their pages carefully knowing they were watching me. In fact they’d done an even more thorough exam than I had. I cleared my throat and put the papers down, looking between Marcel and Joseph. “Well boys, you seem to be in tiptop shape. Congrats. I never doubted y’all for a minute.”

Marcel was staring at my lips, his legs brushing against mine. Joseph smiled proudly.

“So Lee, maybe should have done that from the beginning. We’re all healthy and cautious and…” he looked at Marcel who stared back at him pointedly. “Well we were thinking, I mean of course you can say no.”

Marcel put his elbow on the table and rested the side of his face on his upturned palm as he put his entire focus on me.

I shifted slightly uncomfortable. What was going on?

“I think given our test results and you consistently being on birth control, If you want, then we could forgot the use of condoms, sometimes, most times… when you want.” Joseph explained.

My gaze moved from those words uttered by Joseph to stare at Marcel in surprise.

Not missing a beat, Marcel pointed to Joseph. “It was his idea. “

I cocked my head to the side.

Really Marcel? Really? Was it Joseph’s idea?

He must have read my expression because he smirked.

“But of course on one condition.” Joseph continued.

“Oh, and what is that?” I asked sweetly as I tried to figure out how Marcel had Joseph convinced this was his idea.

“Well, Lee, if we want to be safe and have fun, then maybe we should add an----”

“Exclusivity.” Marcel interjected with an innocent smile, still staring at me.

“Yes an exclusivity clause.” Joseph nodded. He put his hands out. “I mean for the duration of this… thing…”

Marcel shifted his eyes to Joseph.

“And we can opt out at anytime of course, no obligation. No questions asked.”

“Oh… . “ I whispered softly looking back and forth between the guys. “And…” I cocked my head to the side. “Joseph you’re okay with this?”

“It was my idea.” He said proudly. “And I am.. .All in.”

I blinked at the sincerity behind his smile. I turned to Marcel whose smile on the other hand was nothing short of mischievous.

“Okay… . So… . “ I started out slow. “Let me see if I got this right.” I nodded my head. “I can not agree… . And fuck whoever I want, whenever I want.”

Joseph nodded.

Marcel rolled his eyes, which I took immense pleasure in.

“Or… I can agree… but I can only fuck you two… . I mean for the duration of this….”

“Yep.” Joseph nodded again.

Marcel simply watched me, as he’d been doing.

My heart was pounding, but I really wanted to drag it out. Just sitting there, there seemed to be so much power in my hands. “Hummmppphhh.” I thought loudly.

Marcel finished his twizzler. He reached out and tucked a tendril of my short hair, behind my ear. I almost jumped at the electric charge that passed through us.

“Well…”

“You’re so annoying… “ Marcel shook his head.

I smiled and lifted my chin. His knee brushed continuously against my thigh.

“Anyways… . “ I dragged out looking at him pointedly. I shrugged. “Seeing as whatever this thing we have is temporary---”

Marcel shifted his gaze once more to Joseph and straightened up. He crossed his arms on the table.

“Why not. I’m in.” I grinned.

“Yeah! “ Joseph said happily. “She’s in!”

I laughed at his enthusiasm and turned to Marcel, who to my surprise seemed slightly annoyed.

“But… “ I put up my hand. “On one condition.”

They both turned to look at me curiously. I smiled innocently and put my hands on the table. “We have a threesome.”

I watched both their eyes widen.

“And I wanna try anal.”

I mean why not right? Go big or go home. I was going to fulfill those fantasy.

Marcel chuckled and covered his face. Joseph grinned mischievously.

“You know what Lee… we were thinking the same thing.”

“Okay, okay.. “ I took a deep breath. “Good. I m so glad we’re on the same page.”

“Me too. “ Joseph agreed.

I turned to Marcel but he simply licked his lips and rubbed his thumb against his bottom lip as his eyes penetrated me.

**

“Okay, so I have to douche right? Like an enema.”

“No you don’t.” Marcel twirled a pencil around his fingers. “Just use the bathroom before. Or take a shower before and you’re fine.”

My mouth dropped. “Wait but… you guy’s don’t…” I looked back and forth between them.

Marcel shook his head. “I’ve done it like may 6 times my entire life. “

“It’s not necessary love.” Joseph smiled. “And it’s also not technically healthy.” he put his hands out. “Which is why we have such a fiber rich diet. “

“I’ve been lied to.” I whispered.

Marcel chuckled.

“Bowel movements if you need it and then shower or just showers beforehand has always just done the job.”

I sat up on the couch and put my arms out. “But… .. But… like… poop. “

Marcel snickered. “Did you just say poop like a little kid..”

I tuck my tongue out at him.

“Like I said babes, those daily smoothies, full of fiber, it’s okay to tell me you’ve had consistent and relaxing bowel movements since you moved in here.” Joseph grinned proudly.

I opened my mouth in shock but then like what… It was true. No constipation, no diaherra. I ate everything they ate. I nodded and Joseph winked at me.

“Besides Eloise if you’re not having bowel movements, poop remains further up then you think, even Joseph’s dick wouldn’t able to touch it.” Marcel turned to me.

I stared at them in concern. “Really? But… . Like…”

“Everybody whose ever stuck their dick in an ass has been smeared, sooner or later, it’s not a big deal.” Marcel replied.

I gasped.

Joseph nodded. “It’s rare though, no worries, it’s fine. “

I groaned and laid back down on the couch. “I do not want to shit on your dick. “

Joseph laughed. “You won’t. It’s all in your head.”

Marcel stared up from the rocking chair and stared at me softly. “You know Eloise, before you get a dick, you should try a finger. .. “ He suggested.

I sat up.

“You’ve ever stuck a finger up your ass?”

I shook my head.

Joseph’s eyebrows widened. “Never?!”

Marcel watched me calmly. His hands rubbing his knees slowly.

I shook my head again. “That’s probably a good start right?”

Joseph nodded.

Marcel barely moved. I couldn’t figure out what he was thinking. He cleared his throat and got up abruptly. “Okay anal newbie, anymore questions cause I’m going to the studio.”

“Uhm… .. “ I shook my head.

“Aight.” He passed Joseph and kissed his head. “Let me talk to you for a bit.”

“Lee you sure you good?” Joseph asked double checking before he followed Marcel out of the living room.

I nodded. “I think I might have a million more questions, but back of now… I’m okay. “

He grinned. “I’m here. We want you to be as comfortable as possible. “

I smiled at this dare I say new and improved Joseph. I watched them walk away feeling even more eager to engage with them.

**

Don’t act like you didn’t expect me to stick my finger up much butt during my shower tonight.

I did. I mean of course it was a finger, but there was nothing left on it. I checked.

Y’all I even smelled it.

Didn’t smell like shit.

It wasn’t that hard to put it up there, but it didn’t feel like as pleasurable as a vagina you know.

I mean also I was not aroused at all, so that could have something to do with it.

Not bad Eloise, not bad.

I was laying on my stomach, checking my Instagram post. The picture I’d taken of Marcel was annoyingly getting me a lot of followers and likes.

“Yes, come in. “ I answered the knock at my door.

It opened and then closed, feet shuffling. I turned back slightly to see my boys grinning innocently at me.

“What?” I asked turning around some more to watch them inch towards my bed.

Joseph plopped down on my bed and I laughed.

Marcel stayed at the foot of the bed as Joseph reached for me and pulled me on top of him. I giggled, as I sat up and straddled him. He grabbed my thighs.

“Lee… all that talk of your ass, got us thinking of your ass.”

I threw my head back and laughed. Joseph chuckled as he sat up and hugged me, before turning my head and kissing me passionately.

Oh my.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him back. Leaning into him until we fell back on the bed. His warm hands slid up my tank top and down my ass, palming it. It was a bit of time before our lips released and he pulled my body off him as he turned me around.

I hadn’t realized Marcel had sat on the other side. He wrapped his hand behind my neck and kissed me. Slowly. I leaned into the kiss to deepen it but---- he didn’t let me. I opened my eyes, to find him staring at my lips, his own parted. I closed the distance between us, sucking on his bottom lip, trying to capture his top lip, but he pulled away again.

He planted soft feather kisses on my lips and turned me around.

My heart sank. It was involuntary. I couldn’t control the hurt.

But Joseph captured my mouth once more. I fully embraced him.

Forgive me for not remembering the entire time. But my heart and body were in two different places. I was completely turned on, my body even shaking.

He didn’t want to really kiss me but he touched my body like it was gold. I felt his lips down my back. I heard his soft breaths. I knew it was his hands on my breasts, on my ass, down my thigh.

But it was Joseph who held me close. Who smiled and teased me.

It was Joseph who entered me slowly and carefully. I closed my eyes and relished in his touches. And when he fucked me, it was his name that fell from my lips.

“Oh Lee… . God… . Fuck baby…”

I buried my head in the crook of his neck, inhaling his scent. His dick pounding inside me.

And then a new sensation. Wet, foreign. A tongue twirling my asshole. Licking, teasing.

I gasped. Who would’ve have known that was so good.

And then an intrusion. The tip of a finger. My body rocked as I arched my ass more. Deeper it went. More kisses, more tongue and the finger moved, slowly at first. Hand grabbing my ass.

I wanted a little more.

I panted.

It continued, a little bigger stretch. More tongue, wetness all over my ass. Two fingers. Plunging, following the rhythm of Joseph’s dick inside me.

It was too much. So many new sensations.

I moaned loudly, clinging to Joseph as my orgasm shot through me. He held me. Groaning as he speed up his movements.

“Oh.. Oh… oh… uh… .. “ He drained himself inside me, holding me tight as we both shook. My ass clenched on its own, the intrusion gone.

I could have imagined it.

I moaned in satisfaction as I rolled off him. Eyes closed, I heard the sound of my door opening and closing.

I turned and smiled at Joseph.

He cupped my face. “Did you like that.”

I giggled and nodded as he closed the distance between us and kissed me. I smiled at him brightly but my mind raced. This was temporary indeed. I blinked, my heart pounding. Who knew Marcel not kissing me like he used to would cause my heart to ache so.

He did indeed move on fast.

I’d been warned.

I scooted closer to Joseph, who was sprawled out. He put his arm under my neck and held me. He wasn’t a cuddler. But that was okay. He was here.

Eloise, this is your wake up call.

Tread carefully and don’t feel the ping of another heartbreak.